The ENT visit went really well today.  It was just like I told Meaghan it would be, no surprises.  He did some really cool stuff with a tuning fork.  After he took a long close look at Meaghan's ear he told me that there is a big scrape in her ear canal and a cut or tear in her eardrum.  He thinks that she will heal on her own and be back to "normal" soon.  He said 95% of the time injuries like this heal on their own.  If we have any different result there are options but that we should not worry over this.  I have to take her back to see him next Thursday.  We have to keep using the ear drops through Sunday to ward off any infection and then eventually have Meaghan's hearing tested.  The doctor did seem a little concerned about the IV use of Tobramycin and that we haven't had a baseline hearing test.  Continued use of the IV form of Tobramycin can lead to hearing loss and CFers use a lot of that drug.  I think what I told someone today was, "That was the best bad news I could have gotten."  What I can tell you is that Meaghan has a super human tolerance to painful situations.  She isn't complaining at all I have not given her ANYTHING for pain.  She lets me drop the medicine in her ear and tape a cotton ball to her twice a day.  By now I would have shut down, just how much can a little girl take.  

Today went pretty well for Jonathan too.  He could barely breathe without me knowing it.  I have been thinking and praying hard on just what's going on.  My sister-in-law let me bend her ear and offered some perspective.  I'm seeing things a little clearer and feel like I might have some new approaches too.  Tonight Jonathan and I talked about his feelings when he got angry.  He wanted me to write it all down, then he wanted to write.  We decided together that when he feels angry we should talk and make a game out of his feelings.  He wants to pretend he can push his angry feelings down out of his feet.  It sounded funny but there was such a dramatic change in both of us when we worked together.  Maybe we're getting somewhere.  I'll take it for today.

There is never a dull moment and things are rarely ever the same from one day to the next.  This is my wonderful life, I'm the luckiest girl in the world.