Today was a dreary, rainy day but we made the best of it.  Meaghan saw a guitar a few months ago but didn't have enough money to buy it at the time.  She has been saving and today realized she had enough to buy it.  I couldn't resist, so I packed all three kids and headed out to the toy store.  Luckily the boys has some of their own money so everyone got something.  The rest of the day was spent playing with their new treasures.  This is Meaghan giving a concert in our living room, what you might not know is that the guitar plays its own music, loudly :)  Oh well, she loves it and is so adorable playing it, I just smile.

Now something that has been troubling me.  I have faced all Meaghan's struggles head on, with determination to "fix" whatever needed fixing ever since she was born.  I found out after Meaghan's second hospitalization that me neighbor (my closest, best friend) was moving.  When she shared her news with me, I told her I knew it was best for their family and that I was happy for her.  But I didn't want to talk any more about it.  I still mean what I said, her family will benefit from this move and I am happy for that.  I wouldn't talk about her move because it was too hard for me to imagine that she would be gone soon.  It is hard to believe that someone who came into my life such a short time ago has had such an impact on my life.  I am a happier person since knowing her.  I have so many regrets about how I spent the time since I heard she was moving.  We said our goodbyes last night and the view out my kitchen window is so dark tonight.  I know she reads the blog all the time, so "I miss you, Bestie".  So why is it I fight like mad against CF and hide from my friends????