Feeling Funny

 

We're acting a little silly here because there are big things about to happen for us.  Meaghan is going to start school tomorrow.  No exclamation point from me, my fear and anxiety overshadow my excitement.  Her first day will be a short introduction to her classmates and teachers.  For a few weeks we will be building up Meaghan's time at school before she will attend a full day or week.  But I have a feeling Meaghan will be ready to speed up our plan in no time.  We have talked a lot about what to expect.  The anticipation of it all has had an up and down effect on both of us.

 

We have been working for a couple of weeks on creating a plan and a schedule that makes the lengthy list of daily requirements more manageable.  It starts by having to go to bed earlier so that I can wake Meaghan at 6am to start her morning treatment and therapy.  It doesn't sound like much but Meaghan has never liked the morning portion of her care, and we weren't on a clock then.  I'm building a little more time than we need into the schedule so that I can keep my cool better when I meet Meaghan's resistance head on.  Please, Lord help me, I need a calm, gentle touch in the midst of my own struggle with doing what I am so afraid of. 

 

I know that all parents are nervous when they send their kids off to school.  I did that once or twice already, Jimmy is now in middle school!  What complicates tomorrow for me is that I have kept Meaghan at home during the past 7 months because she was too sick and weak to start school with her peers.  I made great changes to my family's lives to help minimize the risk of exposing all of us to germs Meaghan couldn't fight.  Then, I surrendered control over what I can not control and prayed.  Today, Meaghan is STRONG and healthier than she's been in 2 years!!!  Praise God.  I know better now than ever, she is in His hands.  He LOVES her and will see that she fulfills His purpose for her.  My job is just to manage and listen.  The right people are strategically placed in our lives to see that I stay on course.

 

Meaghan's fight is not over, not even close.  There is no cure still for the terrible disease that threatens to end her life and makes every breath she breathes more difficult and meaningful than I can find the words to express.  If you would like to help, you can click the link on the right.  Once there you can donate to the Cystic Fibrosis Foundation in Meaghan's honor or join us in our mission.

 

Thank you to all, you know who you are.  Do not underestimate your influence on our lives, each one of you who listens, encourages and supports us is firmly locked in my heart forever. 

 

Hugs!